Chance is the name we gave our beautiful son. We wanted him to know exactly what he meant to us. He is our chance to become better people, our chance to learn and to grow, our chance at learning how to love unconditionally. This blog is dedicated to our first son. Our hope is that he will read it when he is older and realize just how much he has always meant to us.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Wow. Slacker Mom Here

So yeah, it's been 4 months since i updated. Just call me "slacker mom".

I want to get back in the groove though, no reason i'm behind - i just get my lazy spells.

Chance is 9.5 months old. Really. Sometimes i can't even believe how big he's gotten. I go back and look at pictures from our time in the NICU, when we first brought him home - seems like a different world back then. When i pass St. Davids i get a weird feeling as i remember coming and going from that same parking garage for 13 days. I get the same feeling when i pass the Ronald McDonald House. It's intense, our lives have changed so much since then, since him. I honestly can't remember what i did or thought about before he was here, kinda like he was meant for me - he is my purpose.

It's been a busy few months. Doctor appointments for me (kidney stones, floating kidney, hyperthyroidism then hypothyroidism) and for him (blood in vomit? is he acting weird? trips to Dell for X-Rays and scans that amounted to just Mommy freaking out, and the occassional normal well-baby exam with a Spina Bifida clinic and ECI evaluation thrown in). Just a typical day in our lives ;-) I wouldnt' change it for the world.

Chance is progressing perfectly. He is beyond smart and he just LOVES to flirt and pretend to be bashful with the ladies. He's cute enough to be able to pull it off - we got ourselves a heartbreaker. He is not crawling although he is sitting up like he was born to do it. He can even stand when he is propped up, although he hasn't mastered getting off his heels and standing on his feet. It's cute though, it's so...Chance. He even just learned how to clap!

He is scheduled for surgery sometime in March for an Orchiopexy - gotta find that other testicle if it's there and pull it down. He'll get circumsized at the same time. I've gone back and forth with myself over getting it done, is it wrong that i make a decision about his body for him? Not every boy gets circumsized, maybe i should let him choose. But in the end, i am not a guy so i don't know all there is to know, and Brent is - he wants it done. I don't want Chance to feel more different, and when it comes to cathing - i feel like it will just be easier, i want things to be easier for him. But Chance, if you read this someday, know that i did struggle with the decision.

I've been trying to come up with themes for his 1st Birthday party...the only cartoon he really seems to like is Mickey Mouse, but it seems to cliche to me. I'll post when i've figured out the perfect theme that just screams...CHANCE!!!!

So here are the brand new pics of my grown-up baby. And the video of course. ENJOY!

Love you Chance!